This past weekend my family really took time out for ourselves. Our new schedule is very busy and time consuming, even though we are together, we are on the go a lot. So this weekend the hubby and I decided to relax with the blessings. We took the blessings to the last University of Fairbanks hockey game, and then rented movies for the whole weekend. On Sunday, after church we came home, put on pj's and watched movies for the rest of the day/night.
Well, when I went to bed last night all I kept doing was thanking God for who I am, who He has changed me to be. I have wrote about how at one time I was truly broken, and also about my testimony, you can read about those here and here. See when I was younger I didn't know who I was. I know we don't really know who we are in elementary school but I remember not knowing where I fit in. It was the same also during middle school and high school. I think the time I was 13 to about 29 was the hardest for me. I never really knew who I was, or who I was suppose to be. I probably couldn't tell you what I liked, or didn't like. I always worried about what others thought of me. During those times I was dealing with some family issues, and was walking really lost. I didn't know where I fit within my family, and sometimes I felt very alone. I never really had anyone in my life that taught me about Christ. We did attend church but it wasn't the right church for me. I never knew that we were to have a relationship with Him. I always thought that if I believed that there was a God that I would be saved and would go to Heaven. Boy, did I have a lot to learn.
I wish I could say after I gave my life to Christ in February of 2004, that everything was okay, but I can't. At that moment, I knew what I was suppose to do and I could feel God pulling me closer to Him. It wasn't until December 2008 that I finally knew what I was suppose to do. During that time I was to be still, and to know Him. That was it, I didn't know Him. I didn't take time out like I should to know Him, to pray to Him, and to thank Him. I remember being on my knees, humbling myself before Him, asking Him to forgive me, and reaching for Him. It was then that I gave my whole self to Him, not just the areas I felt I wanted to give, but all of me. A few months later in March of 2009 I took a huge step in my walk and was baptized. I will be celebrating my one year mark in my baptism this March, and looking back I can see where God has restored me.
Since giving my whole self to God, I can honestly say I know who I am!
a daughter of Christ
a soldier in God's army
student of life
acceptor of my body
thankful for being of God's image
Overwhelmed with thankfulness for my salvation and my deliverance!
Some of these things on this list are obvious ones but it took me awhile to understand them. Once I started noticing these things in my life, and embracing them, my heart started changing. Not because of me, but because of Him.
He has brought me out of the desert and into His palace.
Lord Jesus, thank you! Thank you for raising me up and bringing me into your palace. Lord, I pray for those reading this. I pray Lord that they know you, and I pray that if they do not know you, that they search for you. Lord, please put your hands upon each and everyone of them and protect them. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.